Adulthood will be easy

I don't know about you, but when I was little I often thought it would be so cool to be 25 years old. I just thought 25 year old people were just cool people, and their lives were probably fun and easy. Okay, so you can stop laughing now. I know, I know it is crazy that being little I would think this. I am not even sure what around me led me to believe this.

Well, I am 38 years old, and definitely know childhood beliefs are not always true. I love my life. I have an amazing husband. I have an amazing family. I have a great job. I have most everything I could ever want. Yet, God created in all of this a type of dissatisfaction with just coasting in life. He puts within us this desire to want more, more of Him, more of the dreams He has birthed in us. Each stage of life offering me something different to add on to the dreams He has placed inside me. It is very exciting to see what is around the corner. The waiting is hard, and many times harder is actually take that blind step of faith.

Lately, I have understood more adulthood is not always fun and not always easy. I have found myself on overload regarding decisions we need to make that are very important. Also, questioning if some of what is burning inside of me is requiring action now or down the road. I have found in this process I am more anxious than I realized, and noticed once again how much I fret over the uncertainty and the scariness of taking those steps of faith that are required to move forward.

The Scriptures that I have found myself meditating on and praying would be rooted deep in my heart and Spirit are 2 Samuel 22:2-51. I have found myself focusing most on verses 2-3;5-7; 17-20; 29-40. "The Lord IS my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God IS my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation. he is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior from violent men you save me...."

I have been focusing on the descriptions of God in these verses, and questioning if I really live in these truths in my present life. I have believed God's Word, I know God's Word, but when the rubber meets the road do I trust it? I have found in the midst of my questions, my anxiety, my fear, my uncertainty God IS MY Rock. He IS MY Fortress!

I looked up the word Fortress and found this definition. Fortress: fortified; unbreakable; protection; shelter; rescue; never stops; a fortified place; a permanent fortification. My God is unbreakable regardless of the circumstances, tests, joys that lie ahead of me or in the present. My God is my permanent fortification. My God never stops rescuing me. My God is my protection and my shelter in the midst of decisions, stress, and all that adulthood brings. I find my escape in my Fortress. I find my rest in my Fortress.

I know what He has put in my heart, and I know the steps I need to take to experience that will be hard. They will challenge my trust and faith, but in the end I will be rejoicing. I will be rock solid because He is my Rock!